wad does it feel like ta totally gif up hope on life?? as tho dere's nuttin left ta hold on? how does it feel to b totally ostracised by all ur frenz n those hu once cared abt u? how does it feel to lose sumone close w/o knowin da reason?

i've done a little readin on ppl's blog..n i realised tat dere r ppl in da world feelin like wad i've mentioned earlier..yet those hu caused dem ta feel in such a way is not dere ta help put tinks rite..is it always da case? i mean y du ppl wan ta make others' life a living hell wen it isn't beneficial ta da majority?

in sch: my class has so many politics tat i myself feel its affectin certain individuals in their studies. seems like tis ppl creatin probs r not sparin a tot 4 others' feelins..everyone is tokin behind everyone's back..ta put it in a nice way its not ta hurt da persons' feelins by criticising tat person in da face but ta put it in a blunt way its cos dey lack guts..or mayb cos it isn't necessary ta say it out loud..but by doin so, tat person will neva know wad wen wrong..n he may make da same mistake again ta others n its ur fault..cos u dowan ta share da prob tat u guys once shared..so tat makes u selfish..~sigh i'm goin off-track..but u guys shud know roughly my point..

in church: sum feel tat its wrong..sum feel its perfectly alrite..but based on wad i've heard n see..i've 2 points of view..one, its wrong bcos its not morally rite..i mean no one will like it wen ur best fren likes da guy u like..altho love cannot b made ta order, its jus wrong ta intercept halfway..it may not be entirely ur fault but it takes 2 hands ta clap..i'm not bein on sides but i'm jus statin my point from a girls' perspective..two, dere's always another choice..mayb not in church..n i feel u shud open urself up..cos its not over yet..haf more faith in urself..if GOD take u ta it..he will take u thru it..no worwies k? jus rem in ur heart, everything happens 4 a reason..

at home: bro failed subjects n mom's pissed..n mom said alot of stuff not pleasant ta da ears..n bro's tinkin of commitin suicide..sigh~ i rem myself wen i was 15..dere were so many tinks not goin my way..i've been thru it cos i was spritually strong..but bro dosen seem ta c da lite..i wanna help him but i cant make him b me..i wan him ta b determined in achievin da results he wan..i wan him ta b prepared ta make sacrifices in da name of education..but it isn't ez..it neva was ez..n i dunno how ta go abt helpin him..i know he cries wen no one is ard..i know dere's so many times he finds it a drag ta come home n face da 4 walls..tat's y he has chosen denial ta block himself from all da unhappy stuff..dota, maple, wastin his time in front of da tv, hangin out till late refusin ta come home early, makes himself so tired till da extend tat he can fall aslp wen he reaches home..but wad is da outcome? i'm so worried 4 him..i'm worried one day i come home from sch but don c him..i'm scared abt his spritual development..wad happens if he's character gets from bad ta worst?? my goal is ta b a psychologist..a counsellor..but i cant help my own bro..

i've learned ta take tinks ez..especially in my class n in church..cos i dowan ta let small puny individuals affect my life..if dey do not contribute anitink useful in my life..dey r not worth my time n effort bein upset n all..so i hope all those in class hu feel da same as me shud heed my advice..let everything b a test 4 frenship..

to dearie: i luv u da most..so don worwie abt wad ppl say k? don care abt how dey compare u..as long as i don compare u can le rite? i gif u my word tat i'll not compare u wid him in future..

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON..U JUS NID TA FIND OUT WAD DA REASON IS