HEY GABE!!! i'm not lazy la..jus tt ytd i was very tired..nid ta slp u know..not like u..stitch dosen haf to slp!!! so yup..ytd was an excitin day..was luffin thru out nite study..din study at all..onli akira did i tink..dunno how he manage oso..cos gab was tryin to stuff m&m into his nose n test out his nose power..crappy arse!!! it din work..cos it neva ever wen into his nose..was makin alot of noise ytd..gab was 1 nice pal..made mi luff so much ytd..i'll neva forget wad happen man.. ~sigh..read kira's blog..din know he has such low self-esteem..quite disappointed in wad he said.."people see me as an asshole... well sad to say... all this has to be hidden behind those facades.. those nice friendly smiles and laughters... i just wonder... how can people hide those disliking about me.. and still be able to be with me?." dunno hu he meant..but huever he meant..its not nice.. cos i dun tink pple r bein wif him cos of hypocrisy..its a baseless assumption..besides not everyone is perfect..sure will haf flaws wan..frenz shud accept each others' shortcomins.. "sam and miyane were player cards with song and kai ling... well i was around.. and sort of playing with song his cards... then mi yane commented that the game suddenly became noisy since my apperance... so well i moved away... not because she insulted me or anything... but then well... the words i remembered hit me... i'm a jerk... a big fucking jerk... to prevent any further annoyance to them... i made no choice to move away.." we din say tt to insult u in any case..it was jus a comment..y suddenly so sensitive? i mean we always used to speak like tat..anyone in class can 2nd for mi..cos tat's how i n miyane like to dee siao those ard us..if u dun like it..tell us..we wun say a word.. "today is the day that i become a year older...i hate birthday songs... they are just a front to show people appericiate you... fuck... i don't know but then i find it so hypocritical... people wishing me happy bday.... but then in their minds... it's a year closer to having a person like me to fuck off from this world.... " we din gif u a present cos we were hypocrites..we wen thru trouble to make tinks rite on tis day..listen lor..i din gif SQUIDWERT a pressie on its bday..cos i realli dun like IT..but for u? i wen thru da trouble to wrap da pressie 17 times n tis is wad i get? for bein accused as a hypocrite? "i won't cause people to have to prepare themself every morning before coming to school to have to hear that idiot in class making so much noise and distract them... i'm deciding to withdraw from night studies... all i'm there... as i remembered was to be there to talk shit.. disturb sam and mi yane... i guess that's the reason why their grades were much lousier than the mid-year.. i was the one distracting them... and they have to put up with my shit and try to study" tis is rubbish..u dunno anitink..i din study for maths tat's y i expected to fail..graph failed mi..not U!! n i did beta den mid yr for chem..u shud know tt..it was ANNOUNCED in class..as for chinese..onli kailing n clinton passed..how can i expect to pass? chinese i din study too.. not stayin for nite study isnt goin to make anytink beta..ur jus tinkin on ur own part..i jus wanna tell u tat its not ur fault for anitink bad tt goes wrong..cos da world dosen jus revolve ard u..it revolves round many pple hu haf done PLENTIFUL more mistakes den u..n i can easily find a beta jerk cum asshole den u..ur not fit to be a jerk or asshole cos ur not up to tat ATROCIOUS standard..we're frenz cos i can accept ur shortcomins..u've shown to mi tat u can change for a beta person so gif up now?